happiness is a choice. (: [uh huh! the spasticplastic!?]

Sunday, November 8, 2009

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spot the 3mistakes.

11/08/2009 10:56:00 PM

a bc

Since, I have really nothing much to really blog about too.
Now, my concern is to work, work and work.
Being young so what?
Occupying myself with all these make me feel alil happier.
This year aint really a good year.
And, it reminded me of 'toffee nut frappe'.
It's back but without the same person buying it anymore.
It doesnt really matter that much even though sometimes it keeps lingering in my head when I work.
I am not going to sit and do nothing.
I am gonna to work something out.
Out of somewhere.
I am so-called 'not allowed' to blog about my unhappiness in this blog.
So why bother to blog?
crap. I have no idea.
Restrictions here and there.
What makes you think that you are that great?
I am NO LONGER what I used to be.
Neither do I need any SELF-PITY from anyone.
I am able to stand up on my feet without YOU helping me.
Anyway, the bottomline is....
I live my life the way I like and at my own pace.
__________________________
p.s. if YOU think that I am emo again, I've got nothing to say. It's just how you really think and neither can I STOP you from thinking like this.

11/08/2009 10:48:00 PM

Saturday, November 7, 2009

These days have been great.
I went to support fikri's OP and they were really good(: awesome!
And I have been working and working to get enough money to go to a trip!(:
I cant wait for that to happen.
Besides,
my bloghshop is doing pretty well and I hope it will continue to do even better!(:
Lastly,
I hope that everything will be fine for the both of you and
congrats to some of you too(you know what it is, hehe!)

life has been fruitful these days.

11/07/2009 10:41:00 PM

Monday, November 2, 2009

I am such a failure.
In everything else that I am capable of doing.
I just want to be single.
I just want to get my life back.
I just want the past to re-enact all over again.
Why cant things just stay the same way as they should be?
Hopeless.
BUT,
I am happy for the rest.
Their social life and everything are great.
totally.
I never will succeed.
How depressing.

11/02/2009 09:45:00 PM

STOP CROSSING MY LINE,
YOU ARE GETTING OVERBOARD.
GIVE ME BACK MY EFFING PRIVATE SPACE.
I'VE GOT A LIFE.
RETURN ME,
I AM WARNING YOU.

I have my limits.
dammit.

11/02/2009 09:25:00 PM

Friday, October 30, 2009

As much as I dont want to think about it.
It keeps haunting me.
I cant escape it.
It's my fate.
I try not to think about them.
I cant help it.
All the best, to each and one of them.
I am leaving for good.
Goodnight.

10/30/2009 12:17:00 AM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I have been at home for the past few days. The things that I try not to think about it, it's back. I really hope that I wont plunge again. I missed 06. Really do. Esp, that boy who turns into a man. 4 years plus, and I still do think of him. I cant help it but to think that I NEED the ANSWER. I need the REASON. Everything that we do together, as close friends. Where has it gone to? And, now? Do you still want to regard me as friend? Are you trying to avoid me? Sometimes, I wonder why am I so stupid to think in this manner? I have no clue. Among everyone, you are the most outstanding one, the one who caught my attention. I wished to rewind those memories again. I will definitely do a better job than now. =( I have kept everything that you have gave me. It is still very well protected. I really dont know how else to tell you I NEED the ANSWER. I really hope that ONE DAY you will realised that you need to give me one. And, I really hope to meet you again. All the best, dearest.

Throughout these 4 years, I have learnt many many things that most people dont. I have grown up and I realised that time waits for no man. I am old. An old fart. Yet, I still cant sit back and wait for things to happen. I like to make it happen rather than being a couch potato. I miss fiona. Make her come back. Sigh. My mind is spinning like a whirlpool. I dont know what should I do to make it happen? I wanna everything to go smoothly. Why cant I? I wanna to study. I wanna to go uni. As much as you can easily go in there. I really want to go to YOUR uni. So badly. To prove that even I take a longer time and journey, I will still be able to make it! I am inferior again. I feel so inferior. That has been lingering in my head! darn it. sigh.

Anyway, look at the positive side hopefully, I will be able to see you somewhere there. Its such a miracle, I guess. That you are going the same place that I am going to. just that it's different days. I wonder do you ever think of me again? And think of a reason to tell me? I guess not. You have silenced me.

Hope you guys will visit my blogshop!(:

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10/28/2009 01:15:00 PM